I run this ship drive this car rock this beat!!
I have had some low moments were my self esteem was damaged but today that isnt me and I am not turning back. I so get all the stories in the Bible now that I look back and reflect. Lot's wife was told to leave and never look back and when she did she turned into a pillar of salt. I dont want to go back to where I was. I defeated the beast and now I live in victory. I think I have found happiness , I am not wealthy, actually I dont know how I survive but I dont question greatness. God provides everything I need. I dont have a paying job but I know what I do is important and I make a difference in my community. I prefer to get my paycheck by seeing peoples lives changed. I rely on God for the rest. Lord thank you for all my trials and the lessons I have learned to get me to this point.
I will never forget when I was in NEW YORK CITY !! I was on the rooftop of this building and all you can see is lights at night. it was like I was sitting on top of the world. I had just finished the White House Project training. I looked out upon the vast city and I felt like there was no limit to what I could achieve or do, I cried because I said to myself, no wonder I have had so many trials and so many road blocks and obstacles the enemy was trying to hold down a WOMAN OF GREATNESS!! I felt so powerful at that moment I could feel the spirit of the Lord upon me. I have been anointed to serve HIM all the days of my life.
I am about to turn 35, I made a promise to myself to be an engineer by the time I was 35. That was ten years ago and time flew. I could choose to think of myself as a failure for not reaching my goal. BUT I WILL NOT! that was MY plan for my life. God had something else in store. Through my obedience and perseverance I am at a different place and the motions are being set. The other day I read somewhere that everything is in place just stay on the path I am on . He also said its time to make that irreversible decision in my life. I am ready Lord use me! I know once I step into your glory and live by your word everything will change. My perspective, outlook, and my circumstances will forever be new.
Lord you are good and your mercies endureth forever. Its amazing how he takes a poor old sinning sap like myself and makes beauty out of ashes!